August 2010
5 posts
To Soar
A supple leaf blows Gently through the breeze Unassuming and unaware Past all the other trees It dodges the grasping branches Weaving brilliantly it glides Beautifully it dips Whimsically it rides It does not assume It does not conceive It does not love This leaf has no beliefs Someday it will stop Sometime it may fall But for this moment It soars over us all
A Portrait
I am so filled with this desire I refuse to let it out Holding strong on to pain Having given in to all my doubts Fond of playing this waiting game My turn is up but I’m not there I’m hiding down the trail Focus lost but I don’t care All I want is a hint Just a scratch on the surface To see what will come To have a sense of purpose This blank slate tells no tales It...
Stairs
Curled up in a ball, silent through the night Chin resting on bent knees, hidden out of sight I listened to the TV, wishing I was there Staring at the closed door, I didn’t dare
Too frightened, too sad, too passive to call 5 years old, crying all alone, touching the wall I never showed it, never gave any indication That late at night I was dying for vindication
Through the crack in the...
Lost
There is no clear path where I walk No bright light guiding my way My feet settle on unstable ground With bitter winds the foundation sways Cautious steps chosen by reckless eyes A nervous pulse greets an excited mind My palms are sweaty but my grip is firm Heart closed off yet still it yearns Where I tread, no one has ever been What I face has no clear end There is a beast of void under...
This
You clear my mind Clear from all the should-haves Clear from all the would-haves There is just this, just us And we may not be, entirely But that’s alright Because there is still something Rather than just nothing And for tonight, this is all I need.
July 2010
32 posts
This is a rough play of ‘Same As You’...
Free
My eyes trace, but there is more to witness Beyond what light provides: further existence No good nor bad, these are frozen in time Short-sighted concepts for a short-sighted mind I dare you to escape, I provoke you to let go Release your will of all you think you know Beyond the ambitions of simple greed and deceit Lies a peace that can be experienced, but never foreseen Standing on the...
Pantomime
I live, I love, I burn inside I learn, I fail, I coincide The devils and angels in my heart Go by the same name This life rends me apart Tell me I do not struggle in vain! Your hand I touch, taken in mine Our desires expressed in pantomime The cold chill of the world has gone astray The fire burns, it perpetually animates Out of the shadows candid light prevails Out of our sorrows...
Perpetuate
Self-assigned isolation Prescribed to better oneself My time I hoard with greedy precision Batting away all who would approach My heart beats on despite my will Supplicate for knowledge that burns me still From the flames of anguish I emerge anew Weary and beaten with a blackened hue Run away my love. Flee from me forever Run to find your life’s hidden treasures I have nothing old,...
Waiting to Soar
I feign a smile and avert my eyes Hopefully awaiting a pleasent surprise. It isn’t there, never is. Serves me right for my selfishness. I just wait for that word, that sign, that hint That perfect something, to revel in it My heart beats, hear it roar! So ready to take flight, waiting to soar Wait… I… Can’t wait I will strive Give in to the tide I must find a...
Coalescence
Will you coalesce with me? experience all there is to see; matter and consciousness converge; this state of cell separation reversed. I want to be with you; in an eternal gentle breeze; forever touching you softly; to be your underlying peace. My love, I call for you; I long for the day we meet. My thoughts of unnerving surrender, fearing they’re nothing but a dream.
I am Stone
Tears of anguish drop to the ground Fragments of stone falling unbound Over time a new shape takes form My internal essence consistently reborn Born to molten rock, fluid by design Through time and temper my soul solidified Expose me to the forces which I must weather My existence begs for me to endure… forever Day by day scoundrels and thieves chip away My will My love ...
Nothing
You see my eyes, they are ice blue A brilliant facade that seems so true Look harder, I urge you to see One may find the blackness beneath A child-like innocence you do see. An angry man tired, weary of disease A frail doll ready to break A steel bar tempered by restraint Watching the leaves dance by my feet There is no beauty, I do not feel free Shackled by thought, critical of life ...
Imagination
You are a figment in time, a spot of light in my vision. I observe your thoughts in mine, a carefully calculated division. Your consciousness an experiment, time only applies in this sense. Mind matches reality to significance. Reality is in your mind, your essence. When your time is done you fade, another consciousness thread completed. Parallel processing continues, free will left...
Introspection
What does it mean, the will to survive? To whom deserves victor? A metric of crime. The subjective nature of the human mind, Lacking a full grasp, we run out of time. Allow the mind an inch, and it will soar. Flying above the skys to be seen no more. Do not bring the chains, I refuse to land. I must see the world, let my mind expand. I take a journey without leaving my chair. A realm lost...
Discord
The brilliant light. The sights, the delight. To be alive, I thank the divine. I live this day, no guilt in mind. Suddenly at unease, a conflict inside. It taunts me and flaunts with ease. How it wins every time. I struggle and I persevere. I will not fall. My anger surges, I would fight them all. I am a beam of rage but my adversary hides. My fists would swing but there is nothing to...
A First Kiss
Our worlds have merged together in time Impossibly close, your breath on mine. My heart races, my spirits soar. I look into those eyes that I adore. We inch closer, the distance is miles I run to get there, euphoria smiles Our noses touch in a playful embrace Sensitive skin begs for a quickened pace My head tilts with your eyes on mine My body screams GO! But I take my time. I come...
Forever Me
I learned an important lesson today. About who I am, and who I portray. These two, they are not the same. So different, it is such a shame. Another day of living with myself and I. Putting myself down, the real me hides. Lost down a rabbit hole, the inner me fades. The outer me a lie that never complains. No, I don’t feel anything, I have no pain! Make it hurt, make it bleed, give...
Sail No More
Last night I had such a wonderful dream. I had discovered a sail boat so pristine. A flag of the sun, a light to set me free. Chestnuts so sweet, a fragrance so deep. I dreamt I sailed the world with her. I would go where her sails lead. Alone together, lost from the world. Gone was violence, money, and greed. We sailed together, a dream within a dream. A ship oh so small; she defeated...
The Great Escape
We run so quickly through the crowded streets. Dodging any obstacle that brings us grief. Hand in hand we outran them all. Side by side we could not fall. The adrenaline surges and I exclaim: “We beat them at their own stupid game!” Like a kid in a candy store I jump for joy. I see love in your eyes as you look on so coy. I smile so wide and I laugh so loud. I cannot control...
Perfect!
Oh, nice to meet you, I am Tommy Guiness. I am perfect, you are perfect, we should do business! Hah, nice pants, did you buy them in style? Naw, I don’t follow trends, they copy MY style! Haha! Let’s chat as we have some tastey drinks. Talk about frivilous things that don’t make us think. Oh, that’s interesting! But my stuff is better! Look at this car, look at my...
The Coldest Embrace
What is it inside that simply will not rest? The winter has come again I must confess. The emptiness always awaits with open arms. A contradictory embrace of lonely alarm. Tired of endlessly repeating this cycle. High on life then learning it was denial. Fate laughs at me with depressing guile. My sincere apologies, I must sleep a while. Once again I fall through the open cracks. Lost...
X
Evening, quiet abandon. Night, restless sleep. Morning, tired and rushed. Day… Eternity. Another X on the calendar. Waiting for the unknown. Grieving for what never was. Once again battling the cold. Alone with all my friends. Alone with family that I love. Wondering why I am oh so weak. Wondering when I will rise above. Wishing I would just… Move on…
Survive This Night
I wade through the steady stream of tears grown from a small puddle over the years Suffering for the will of others who do wrong Struggling the oppressive line you walk along To find your home, your world, is torn apart. You pray to god, you bleed from your heart. So much anguish, so much pain. To watch the innocent die in vain. What are the true reasons so many must die? What if...
Dreams for Sale!!!
HEY! Over here… I have something to see! You want something to buy? Want some dreams? I have got a whole bin, discounted to sell. A little of heaven. A little of hell. Buy one get one free, make your choice. Take the whole lot and be filled with joy! I have some hopes, I’ll throw those in too I’m desperate! I’m ready for something new! You got some of your own that...
Bring Me Shame
Call my name, as you harden your fist Release your pain, I am the exit Is this all you can give? Muster some more Send me under, paralyze me with horror Icey touch, a chill down my arm You exist only to bring me harm Maniacal laugh Bloodshot eyes Unwavering grip Innocence dies I live with shame From one monster to another, you did it all wrong You made a mistake, and now I live on I...
The Weeping Tree
I saw a gray tree that was so disgustingly plain I sought to make it better. Oh, the beauty it could gain! Others would see; “How gorgeous!” they would exclaim I shook off the ugly leaves and tossed them astray I pulled off the bark, but underneath it was still gray I cut into the wood. It wept the sap, its tears of pain I bleached the tree yet it remained the same I covered it...
Angry Sea
I jump into the water, the warm black sea Swimming deeper and deeper towards serenity Mind finally blank, enjoying the waves Singing the songs of the sirens’ gaze It pulls to the left, trying to take me down It pushes to the right, but I do not drown A boiling cauldron, my temper, it rages I love it, I NEED it, been waiting for ages I fight back and it loves me for it My will to...
Chameleon
I changed my color today for you Red, to green, to black, to blue I only seek to satisfy you So, what would you have me do? I could be your friend, your lover, your vice You could be my only will to survive Does that sound nice? Would you like to try? Wait! Come back! My life I would sacrifice! I fell in love with a lamp pole again Sometimes I wonder what’s wrong within Flash me a...
Dance for Me
At my side, yet miles apart These eyes hold a cold dead heart Speak again about your love A gentle caress that does not judge Prove you love me yet again Over and over and over again It’s never enough, this bottomless pit Swallowing you whole for the fun of it My amusement is sated and I am full Glutton of emotion, I live to cull The darkness you feel, it is me Pulling the...
Purity
I struggle to attain What I cannot sustain I fall into darkness And I will not resist I enjoy this pain, you see That which completely consumes me I will take it to my grave As I pass through hell’s gates I am forever a broken soul All which I have done wrong My deeds drop to make a trail The deceitful path I walk along Follow me if you dare Guide me if you care I want to pull...
Fortunate
I feel fortunate today For this stupid game I play For the quiet days I pray And the memories not taken away
I feel thankful for this A temporary moment of bliss Moments I can reminisce Missing pain’s stinging kiss
I wish you could join me In these vibrant fields of May Before they all wash away And I return to gray I would give you my hand And take you to my home A home...
As I Fall
Cracks, holes, and rust My soul, covered in dust My thoughts and dreams Emersed in terror The despair I feel Impossible to measure Take me to a better place Somewhere I am not a waste I would stand by your side If I could stand at all This hole in my armor Has got me down to a crawl Do not feel bad, its not your fault Continue forward, even as I fall Please seek out someone else ...
Deprived
I have been left all alone like a child without a home My journey, it has been set In a life so quick to forget So here I walk in pain I wander aimlessly again All the escapes disappear I am locked inside of here. Deprivation, all it takes away Steals the sight from me Robs my hands of pain I do not exist, and it is OK I desire nothing less than to bask in full duress I am so...
Dust
I warned you when this began My word I thought you could understand This betrayal Now I am consumed with rage This anger Resisting the urges I crave Your destruction I would have sacrificed my life My being You wouldn’t sacrifice a vice This waste Now I lean towards rebirth My destruction Rise from the ashes of Earth I will burn you alive In fire Become my sacrifice ...
The Model American
Please take away my sight I cannot trust what I see And replace it with your message So I know what to believe Please bind my mouth I do not wish to speak Please keep me in silence So I may not relay what I have seen Please hide the graves Of our soldiers who have died The soldiers that fight for freedom Because you tell them it is right Please hide the misery Of those whom we fight ...
Square One
I really thought I had a chance on this one. I really thought I could get ahead. All the pieces fell together perfectly. Nothing was missing, except for an end. Do I over-idealize this situation I am in? Do I only see what might have been? I can’t answer that, I don’t know. But I would certainly prefer another spin. It’s ok, shit happens, you know? I will make it through...